I gave you my all ....

Life's changed. Friday did happen. Now were at odds and arguing. The little things. Feelings hurt, all that it means, and all that it's not. Sometimes I don't know how to say "I feel hurt". Yet here I am taking the blame for trying to express that. Am I that big of a fucker?, am I mean?. Whats wrong here?. I could not express, so I shut down. And yet .... now were on "hold". An agreement made by one and not all. For I respect too much and fear the loss of all that is us. Numb and broken, my body should feel a "loss", yet I'm telling myself ... everyone goes through it. Your virginity should not be praised, nor celebrated when lost. Somehow I dont know if there was any concept of tha value that I gave .... I gave you my virginity.