I'd wake up only I'm not asleep.

I'd try to kiss you, but you just turn your cheek
I'd say I love you but you walk out the door.
Id try and be there for you, but you seem not to need me.
Failure to communicate this sends me into doubt.
Sometimes I worry that I'm not "the one".
Sometimes I fear that you will lose "love".
When I need a friend I need you.
When you need a friend, you have me.
Yet times like now, I feel as though I'm just standing in your way.
Days like today, I'm just a failure and you're a shining star.
Always a slave and never an equal, I look inside myself to see this evil.
Such doubt of my own confidence, such sacrifice of my own will.
Learning how to provide love is easy, but learning self love takes skill.
I love you, I have love to give you. Sometimes I feel as though you dont want to talk to me.
Are you pretending to sleep.
Do you wake as I drift out the door on mornings?.
Am I even special anymore . . .
Do I do it?